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whiteSometimes,  when I think of you, I desire to scream.  But,  I don't.  Instead I look up and count.  The tiles.  --  
I see your face. Uncaring, square, white,  
in  
each  
one  above.  Trying to breathe, in and out.  The urge to scream is taking over.  Mooaning in pain.  People stare, glare.  up  
a  n  d  
down  Their eyes.  In them I see you  Carressing, caring, loving.  I start toy cry,  
as those eyes whisper your words  you never meant,  right before you left.  When I fell asleep,  you weren't white
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Emily.softy, my tears pray  to the god of my shame  gut wrenching pain  tears falling for her unmarked grave  for my promised, who has seen me maimed.   
jesus, i softly call your name  no longer does my soul blame  no longer does my mind try to understand  all the nasty grime on my red hands.   
jesus, choose to come to my land  close this chapter of the book  let your will be done  let your will be done  on earth,,.. Emily.
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HellI hold her in my arms.  As the priests speak our name.  If only she would love us, Son.  If only she could praise.   
Why was she hurt so much?  Why did she turn away?  If only she could see us, Son.  The death taken in her place.  She would not have been so broken.  She would not have been so maimed.   
"To know Him, is to love Him"  Our priests, to her, they say.  Yet she has known us and turned away.   
Like darkness, as the sun comes out.  Like dirt, washed by the rain.  Her soul wants us most,  But all she felt was pain  She, then, convuls Hell
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Somewhere between a poem and prayer...

Sun Apr 20, 2008, 4:23 PM
oh god how many more times do I have to throw up
how much more mustard and water until I am pure
how many more cuts
how many times must i ask for forgiveness
oh god, im falling
im falling so far
i no longer know where you are
oh god the pain is wearing off,
truth is real
slipping away, I don't have any more pills
oh god don't let me become numb , have to fight.
hold on tight to my mind before it slips away
into just another mindless facade
another thing to decorate this world,
filled with darkness and decay
oh god, all my friends must go away.
I can not stop their pain.
oh god, how can I be alone
how can I face the silence
and come out alive
oh god where are you?
did you make me this way?
can I just be content that you are not there and fight anyway,
There is nothing to fight for
all is not right
no morality exists without you.
just want to die.
one last purge of sins.

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  • Mood: Sadness
  • Listening to: LinkinPark, In the end.

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:iconamiyaz:
*amiyaz Nov 13, 2008, 8:08:16 PM
your simple comment really uplifted my night. thanks. it's amazing that such a simple gesture can make such an impact, yet it's rare for people to reach out for anything so positive. normally only complaints I've seen are worth anyone's time.

I'm flattered that you were drawn to my gallery highlighting what I see in the world, especially coming from a self-proclaimed DA loather, it is the highest compliment.

:aww:

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[deviantART] :blackrose: [flickr]
:iconcinzanoxaqu:
~cinzanoxaqu Nov 15, 2008, 8:20:38 AM
^_^

I am honored you took my comment to heart. Really, I expected no reply.

The other day, I was simply looking over your profile and since I will soon be in Argentina, your art inspired me. It gave me a glimpse of what kind of pictures I want to take, myself.

Was only fair to thank you.

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“A Robin Redbreast in a Cage Puts all Heaven in a Rage”
:iconamiyaz:
*amiyaz Nov 15, 2008, 8:45:31 AM
:hug: my page isn't frequented, so I'm always curious to experience the art of those drawn in a misdirected fashion to my photographs.

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[deviantART] :blackrose: [flickr]
:iconamiyaz:
*amiyaz Nov 13, 2008, 8:21:40 PM
just found myself enthralled by your poetry, realizing you're more than just a girl who left me an uplifting comment, you are an incredibly talented poet.

you have a lot to say. keep writing/sharing. at the moment I'm disturbed, nostalgic (in a good way).

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[deviantART] :blackrose: [flickr]
:iconcinzanoxaqu:
~cinzanoxaqu Nov 15, 2008, 8:23:35 AM
*smiles*

Thank you. I never expected, nor do I think anyone has looked closely at any of those poems. Most were simply a vent for me last year. All are now old and feel like they came from a different person.

I am hoping to have something more recent up soon.

Did not mean to make you nostalgic.... I am a bit sad to hear that any of those poems would...

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“A Robin Redbreast in a Cage Puts all Heaven in a Rage”
:iconamiyaz:
*amiyaz Nov 15, 2008, 8:43:53 AM
it's more the emotion that the poems evoked brought me back to a time where I felt similarly. seemingly a long time ago.

interested to see what you come back with from Argentina, a place I've wanted to go. constructive comments are always welcome - feeling a bit uninspired/untalented myself recently.

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:iconchorisromance:
Mood: Cheerful ~ChorisRomance Apr 13, 2008, 12:54:09 PM
thanks for the fav!!!

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She said she can't take anymore of these deadly lies,
and seemed to fly into the night with a thousand fireflies,
along with a suitcase of dreams that reach into the skies.
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~moondustlayla Apr 11, 2008, 2:31:28 AM
thanx for the add too!!! :hug: this is going to be great!!

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Let me be your wings .. let me be your angel..... Let me guide you.... let me be your happiness... *sigh* Dont go down that dark path again don't let this repeat itself. :cling: your not alone you'll never be alone as long as I live n breath I'll be here!
:iconcinzanoxaqu:
~cinzanoxaqu Apr 13, 2008, 6:54:52 AM
I know! I love your works. Very inspiring.

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“A Robin Redbreast in a Cage Puts all Heaven in a Rage”
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